Baby!!!

I just found out that one of my "instant-friends" is having a baby (too!) Isn't that wonderful? Congratulations dear Yza! (see even our nicks are the same! haha) I hope you be a good mom! Mwah!

Girls Are Like Apples

I just get sooo marshmallow-y when I read blogposts about lovers who survives after stormy ordeals in their relationship (a.k.a Saulkrisna) My heart melts every time I get to read the pure sincerity and innocence of their so-called partnership. It got me thinking, at least they made it, they bravely rushed through the hardships and gave it a damn one more chance. I know I didn't, but that is all because I didn't have a courageous and brave enough boyfriend who will fight for me and woo me against all odds. That's sad you know, but what the hell- I am living. :)

So for you dear Saul (I really dunno what your real name is..sorry), I want you to always remember that She is worth fighting for, She is worth dying for, but most of all... She is worth living for. So be strong, and be patient all the time.

And for all of you guys out there... remember:

So be very brave. :)

Now reading...

I so love reading. Thanks to Chick Lits of ipmart for the sources! :D

Dark Eyes

Sometimes, in darkness and insularity, people face their point of realization. Then in times of bliss and comfort, all they see are blinded judgments and unclear waters. This may be life’s way of making people see beyond what’s there. Beneath the sea of dreams there might lay a dark corner of failures, behind the mountains of misery might be an island of pure joy and happiness. The world is a huge maze of mystery for most. Some see it as a land of struggles and fears whilst some view their surroundings with utmost enthusiasm and hope for an ever constant changing life. I see it as it is. A provider.

When people are born, they come with such lucid eyes that make just everything so gentle for them. Yet when people grow up, those eyes get trapped in a misty blanket that most often leads them to blindness. If people can only look beyond the darkness, if only a few minutes are spared and they would look deeper, they might see the light. I know that this is a little vague for you my readers but then, it makes me wonder and realize at the same time that the eyes is the only hope that we have right now in this crazy world. As I write in the middle of the night where I can’t see anything but the light of the screen of my computer, I thought about one thing. What if the lights come off? Will I ever get to finish whatever I started? And I looked around. I tried so hard to look beyond the darkness. Little by little my eyes saw, and something flickered inside of me. HOPE.

“If you look deep and hard, you will see. In life, you’ll reap what you sow… so never get tired of looking what you want in life, use your eyes, use it well.”- Ysh.:)

And She's Back

Sup people?I’m back! Harhar. I’ve been running out of ink and paper lately as well as that inspiration juices us writers call. But nonetheless, I have been out and about the suburbs and urban areas of the metro and I was at raves and parteeeys with friends :p I am still at the crossroads though, I have the direction towards new life yet I prefer to not move a step at the moment. It doesn’t feel right, yet. So wink with me as I go with the drift. :)

It’s officially the time of my life, I mean I just turned 23 and fate has this way of making the world rock and roll, that is, on my side of verve. I guess I now understand how aging comes with new toys and that spicy feeling every time it gets stashed in your way. Love it or hate it, it still stings damn good!

So keep me from falling dear providence, my heart’s crippled by the pain that I keep on closing, so never cut me open again. :D

Now as for this little piece of throbbing heart, it’s hangin’ on and still grippin’ tight. Why would I neither settle for less nor rebuke my own judgments when I can in time have all the love in the world? Right? I say Long Live Singles for that! Hahaha. No seriously, I am happy and I am contented in my life right now. I don’t need a chap who will again give me the thorny roads to step on. In time I will go and hunt them myself but now na-uh to rushing.

Anyway, I’m writing a book right now and it’s getting pretty well on the chapters. It’s calledELLE. I won’t give any deet as for now but in time I might publish it here in my blog.:)

And for those who missed me... Free stare..haha.. I missed you too. :)

Hey Feature Ed!

Mae, Vnx and Moi
Us Girls
Ysh, Mae, Melai, Vianca

To Mae, who's flying to Canada tomorrow---GO GET EM ALL! hahaha. Will miss you. Mwah!

IMAGINE.

IMAGINE. I was always a dreamer. I used to get lost in my own made-up world. I stare blank outside country lanes while inside a bus, imagining my dream house, the things I don’t have and what I so want to have. I think of my prince charming waiting for me on the most amazing places I can imagine. I believed that I was a princess and I can have anything and get to keep them forever. It kept me strong you know, it kept my hopes up, it heals me when I’m in pain, it satisfies me in all ways, it has always been my own secret garden. But it’s just all inside my mind.

I yearned for everything sugar and spice and just about everything nice. I was optimistic and I think of the world as a big bright colorful patch blanket. I used to see things with utmost enthusiasm that sometimes I can’t contain the hopes and the dreams that I carry around with me. I remember the days I spent with my best friends under a mango tree we called ours. We would climb and name each of the branches, one for each of us to sit and own. The river at the back of our house would serve as our pool and a heat quencher in the hottest days of summer, I would squeal whenever I see my playmates catch a fish or a shrimp, I would laugh till my lungs hurt on our story telling and gossip times and I would always be the mediator when two of them brawl with each other. I was so happy.

My eyes then, they reflected so many dreams and I would, if only I could…I would exchange this life for a rewind of the tape. But a person grow and leaves things behind, sometimes it just slips out of their minds like a bad dream. And now I know, after all the misery, the broken hearts, the disappointments…

Stupid girl, I should’ve known, I should have known…

“That I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairytale, I’m not the one you sweep off your feet, lead her up the stairwell, this isn’t Hollywood, this is a small town, I was a dreamer before you had let me down now it’s too late for you and your white horse to come around.”

But this princess has suffered the consequences and was drawn away from her dreamland. Now it’s all black and white. Now it’s all reality. And with all the distress, I have to face the truth that I FORGOT. I forgot to imagine, I forgot that I’ve always had that place inside of me where I can run to whenever I’m hurt. I know, I lost my secret garden.

“Until you lose the one you wanted coz you’ve taken it for granted and everything you had got destroyed…”

If only I could… like what Melinda of Ghost Whisperer got, “a second shot at your one true love”, but when I come to think of it, have I even met my one true love?

If only I could… like what Gossip Girl said,“the only way to get over someone is to get another someone”, but why does that logic never apply to me?

If only I could… like Shakespeare’s quote, “All’s well that ends well” but sometimes, sometimes it just ends.

I made up my own phrase, quote, line, passage, whatever you call it when I compiled my stories and poems into a book I guess five or six years ago. Funny coz I wrote “Life is a crystal in everyone’s palm, if you hold it tight it might break, but if you hold it loose, it might fall down”. Now I truly believe that some people “eat their own words”.

“You’re hot and you’re cold, you’re yes then you’re no, you’re in then you’re out, you’re up and you’re down, you’re wrong when it’s right, it’s black and it’s white…”

See? IMAGINE my CONFUSION.

Postsecrets again

"being there with you did..." who? where? when?

I can't remember just how it feels anymore.I don't know what it's like to feel. That's not good right? Seeing this photo and just knowing that the person who sent this feels the same way gives me a little bit of a consolation. At least I'm not alone.

And yes so I'll leave it all to fate.

photos from postsecret.com

R-E-C-E-N-T

just ysh, ysh, ysh...:)

Caught on Quotes #2

"The past is always with us... Just waiting to mess with the present."