Didn't Watch Anger Management.

Coz I'm One Step Closer to the Edge and I'm About to BREAK!!!

-when you're not inspired, there's nothing to read-

Life is a BITCH!

~I know right~

Mystery

I'm sick.

I can barely breathe and my temples are throbbing like crazy. I sneeze every 10 seconds and wtf my eyes are all red and teary.

Shit happens so I don't care, I'm still gonna blabber...

I really am not the same me anymore, If you see my Friendster account, you might find the About Me section very different from what I see myself right now. I've changed, and sorry for me but it wasn't for any better. I want to be isolated right now, I am not in-love with Love anymore, I don't care anymore. To hell with that.:(

But this is making me feel weird, I for once and from the very start never thought that this phase of my life would come, I never thought I'm capable of pushing my loving and ideally perfect perception of love aside. But what do you know, it's too late.

I am reading the book Twilight, you know, the movie which recently made fanatics suddenly drool over blood and vampires. Hahaha. But see, I'm not an avid trend-follower, I don't dwell over what's new. I make it and do it my own way. So now I've decided to read the book first before watching the movie, which if I may mention, was soo yesterday. Lols

Going back...

In a week's time I'll be stepping my foot again to my hometown, again I will breathe the air that has nursed me for 22 years, again I will be seeing the people I have toiled life with and bitched with, and only God knows if I'll ever be able to change this current state that I'm in right now. I doubt it, I'm determined to stay this way for a while. No man can ever make this heart breathe for the moment, I am stuck in my own world where no one can hurt me again. Am I in the healing process? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe I'm gonna be like this for good. But who the hell knows what's gonna happen...

"Love is gone and my heart is a bird,
that has lost direction mid-flight."- Laura Ramirez

No One Else Comes Close

“You’re my dream come true, Boy you know I’ll always treasure every kiss, and every day, I’ll love you boy in every way…”

I am so deeply buried into the proverbial pit of limbo. I am alone, I am all by myself once again and yeah, the title of this post really does the overall ending. No ONE else comes close! No one even bothers to ask and give me the comfort that I desperately need.

You know I’ve always been true to how I feel towards you. I’ve been impulsive, I’ve been vulnerable, I’ve been open to everything you might give me, I never cared for the consequences… I just needed to be with you, and be happy.

But I am so hurting right now.

You said you’d keep me. You lied. “You lied to get into my pants, and it worked. Stupid bitch –me”

I wanted to be happy. But you deprived me of that when you slapped me with the reality you’ve been clinging on with all along. I wanted to love you, to take care of you. Now I can’t move on with these back thoughts hanging on my mind… You know I can be the one you’ve been looking for, but then, you looked at me beyond my qualifications. You saw just the imperfections.

Maybe it’s just my imagination.

I can’t stop thinking about you, but I have to forget you now. How? I wasn’t enough of a woman for you, I was just nothing, and I bet you can even associate ‘trash’ with my name now. Damn did I just make insult to myself?

You said you missed me, you missed Us.

One step at a time, there’s no need to rush. Funny I’m being so melodramatic here, I don’t care anymore, and I’m as transparent as anyone out there who’s hurting like me too.

I’m sick of playing all of these games. I’m fucking tired. Always happens every time. And now I’m doubting your “society status”. Fuck.

“It feels so crazy, coz I don’t know what I did to you. If you’re gonna hurt me, then do it quickly. Coz I’m tired to cry, if you don’t wanna stick around then baby forget about me…”

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Before He Cheats... It gets into me

Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood
Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,and she's probably getting frisky...
Right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...
Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,carved my name into his leather seats...I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing somewhite-trash version of Shania karaoke...
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky...
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,carved my name into his leather seats,I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,Cause the next time that he cheats...
Oh, you know it won't be on me!
Ohh... not on me...

Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,carved my name into his leather seats...I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...
Ohh... before he cheats...

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