Since You've Been Gone

"But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get 
I get what I want
Since you've been gone"

I sound Bitter. Shit. But then again, I don't care. Just like that and then we're gone, this is how it's supposed to be, this is how we're meant to end, this is how I'm supposed to be. Wishful thinking, make everything right. But no, I proved some things enough, rather you proved them, you are never worth it, you don't deserve me. My heart was true, but you chose to be a fool. Way too late now babe. I hate you.

"You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again"

I love this Song...

It's monday. I'm sick. I miss my bessy J, and I miss my station..tsk..:(

I'm engrossed with Shiny Toy Guns and their song Rainy Mondays, I just love this song..

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I don't mind, you're someone that ain't mine
But someone that I'll get
And you don't know how hard I’ve tried
To convince myself that I can easily forget
But you let this feeling here inside me
One that never fails to find me

On a rainy Monday
I feel it inside me
Like the days of summer 
On a rainy Monday
I feel it inside me
In the hopes of one day...

I won't lie; I still can say that I 
Admit we went too far
And you won't see me change my mind
But I really wish that I
Could forget the way you are
But you let this feeling here inside me
The battle in my mind still fights me

On a rainy Monday
I feel it inside me
Like the days of summer 
On a rainy Monday
I feel it inside me
In the hopes of one day...

I can see that you're not beside me
But I still feel you shine inside of me

On a rainy Monday
I feel it inside me
Like the days of summer 
On a rainy Monday
I feel it inside me
In the hopes of one day... (2x)

Mystery

I'm sick.

I can barely breathe and my temples are throbbing like crazy. I sneeze every 10 seconds and wtf my eyes are all red and teary.

Shit happens so I don't care, I'm still gonna blabber...

I really am not the same me anymore, If you see my Friendster account, you might find the About Me section very different from what I see myself right now. I've changed, and sorry for me but it wasn't for any better. I want to be isolated right now, I am not in-love with Love anymore, I don't care anymore. To hell with that.:(

But this is making me feel weird, I for once and from the very start never thought that this phase of my life would come, I never thought I'm capable of pushing my loving and ideally perfect perception of love aside. But what do you know, it's too late.

I am reading the book Twilight, you know, the movie which recently made fanatics suddenly drool over blood and vampires. Hahaha. But see, I'm not an avid trend-follower, I don't dwell over what's new. I make it and do it my own way. So now I've decided to read the book first before watching the movie, which if I may mention, was soo yesterday. Lols

Going back...

In a week's time I'll be stepping my foot again to my hometown, again I will breathe the air that has nursed me for 22 years, again I will be seeing the people I have toiled life with and bitched with, and only God knows if I'll ever be able to change this current state that I'm in right now. I doubt it, I'm determined to stay this way for a while. No man can ever make this heart breathe for the moment, I am stuck in my own world where no one can hurt me again. Am I in the healing process? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe I'm gonna be like this for good. But who the hell knows what's gonna happen...

"Love is gone and my heart is a bird,
that has lost direction mid-flight."- Laura Ramirez

Ice Queen

Happy New Year!

This is kinda late and the season's air fleed already but then again, here I am typing these words without any recourse. I've spent my Christmas at the office with my friends, well, better laugh our hearts out with them crazy guys than spend it alone or just snooze in the bed. I spent my new year in a conference call with my two best buddies at work, Jen and Elah, it was fun though, but I still missed my mum. Sigh. I've once again changed, I'm defined, but at the end of it all...I'm undecided.

Sheesh, whatever happened to you Ysh? I feel like I can NEVER recall how to love again, I have people around me who blatantly slaps me in the face with their "i love you's" and all those cheesy, mushy stuffs. But I just can't take it like how the normal me would do. Gosh, have I become the ice queen?

Tell me Ysh, when will you melt?

Ela, Ela Ey..

I was almost so close to dying out of boredom a while ago..

Thanks to my team mate slash friendship Elah, I was saved. She was doin her shopping spree at SM so I immediately changed and met with her. T'was soo fun, we we're bitchin' and laughing out loud at all those young preppies who dresses like there's no tomorrow..(hahaha! quote: wala n bang bukas ysh at ganyan sila magsuot?) hahaha!

Jenny, on the other hand was itching again for all the gossip, haha (inggit!)..She has a suncellular line so there, you may have guessed, my ear felt so hot with the 3hour chikka blabbering with her, and that's while I was busy chatting with Ela too!!..tsk tsk..These girls can pull the living hell out of me, but still, they're fun and that's what makes us BFF's.

Y, J, and Little J... love it!

I love my girls though, no one should mess with them..

REMEMBER: We don't get mad, We get EVEN.

:)

All I Want For Christmas Is...

Gossip Girl Book

Red Shoes from Celine

Another NegativiTEE Shirt with print "Pilya"

Veronica Mars Complete DVD Collection Seasons 1-3

MAC Make-up Kit

and lastly....

THIS MAN! Hahaha.. Chad Michael Murray! Right Jenny? Hahaha.. U really like men of these kind (semblance?)..nuh uh...hahaha..:)

My Supercoach Jenny

I have found my long-lost twin, my counter-part, my nemesis, my sister soul, my reincarnated half.

Jenny!!!

I met her at my work office, at GM, she was one of the super coaches and she was assigned to ours (Team Achieva). Anyway, I am beyond shocked and appalled on how every once in a while, we discover lots of common things between us, some are way way scary na! hahaha! Love yah J (I call her that, she calls me Y) From previous boytoy, to ultimate crushes (chad oh chad!), to names of ex hook-ups, to chocolate addiction, and from being a school-paper nerdy in HS to loving mocha fraps. Hahaha.. Shet. She’s like an epitome of Grace Kelly, of Audrey Hepburn, of Queen Elizabeth, but despite the lovely and enticing physical appearance  is a deception lurking under a devilish and meanie brat (just like me!) ahaha! She can be the expert probing B (haha) and I can always be the conscience behind every line that she utters which I soo know has a hidden meaning. Can’t hide from me ryt? I even keep her ultimate (is it?) secret crush on the floor but I get way way impressed on how she can be soo discreet and icy when she sees him. Hahaha! I am trying to be the Ms. Match again here but then this guy is soo..oh I dunno! He’ll probably read this anyway.hahaha..right? I bet you’re reading this coz u saw the title and you hafto admit, you can like J as well.hehehe

Well, to more coffee chit-chats and future crush overload moments, hope this friendship lasts.

Dencio and Danny

Last night was friggin great! Hahaha.. I went out (met up) with my team mate and we went to Trinoma, decided on Dencios and drank our hearts out..:)

It's actually fun when you get to see the city at night again (talking bout call center peeps) and of course you get to mingle with other guys. Well it so happened that this companion I had was indeed a very genuine and funny one, never a dull moment with him. All laughs and witty responses. Love it!

At around 11PM, we went to Timog and had the cab drop us at Danny's Grill. At that time I was soo (f*ck what's the english term for kilig ba??) hahaha..then and there we talked and talked and talked till we got tipsy..haha, I didn't consume enough for my brain to shut dead because I'm still goin home so I was moderately secured. Ahahaha!:)

The end point is, I had fun last night. And this has never happened for the past 5months.

Thank you EJ. ;)

Which female character from 'Gossip Girl' are you?

from: www.quizilla.com

You are BLAIR WALDORF

You are popular and pretty. You can be nice to get what you want, but most of the time you're just plain mean. You have your whole life planned out ahead of you and idolise Audrey Hepburn.

Hmm.. Am I like her? I just took the quiz you know...

Go figure babes! :D

Good Morning Post

Good morning Philippines!

Tired. Just got home from work and hell my tummy aches. Anyway, I've learned another life-essential lesson today..."Why Settle for Less?"

Wondering where that one is coming from? Well, before when I was still an aspiring nobody I used to be contented to just everything that comes ordinary, be it material or achievement. I'm making my point clear enough right? Well now that I'm working already, I am slowly building this determination to succeed and hope to God I can finally tower and be proud of myself. See, this blog is not all about my bitching (bummer...did I just use that word again on a supposed-serious post?) hahaha :) It's inate so bear with me my beloved readers.

Anyway, since I'm starting from the bottom, I know someday I will reach that peak of success. Every successful man has come from the starting line and I'm proud to say that I've already run a few miles from the start. Still I know, I'll be encountering a few obstacles here and there, I don't care, I will survive (naks!)

So there, I am again on the verge of fainting. Sleep is all that's lacking in my life right now, I'm starting to hate the mirror, whenever I face it I see eyebags! pakshet. Hahaha

Ciao!