Babies and Weddings

I'm so thrilled to hear the news that my bestfriend is having a baby!

I mean, wow I can't imagine that my two bestfriends have babies already.

This feels so nostalgic, I keep remembering our highschool days together, our silly jokes and trips, our girl bonding moments, the boy-hunting sessions, the mall trips, the endless laughters and fun. Those moments that I really really treasure because those times made me really happy and the friendship we had, I know, is meant to last forever.

And now it all ends up to me. I was bombarded with questions as to when will I have my baby too and when will I get married. Hahaha..Lols..Soon

I'm so excited to finally witness the wedding of my bestfriend this coming month. I was the one who served as theie Ms. Match when we were in highschool, that's why I'm so happy to finally see the "fruits of my labor" face the altar together...and live happily ever after..

*happy*

Closure

I do not understand a bit why I have to undergo some emotional instability once again with nothing of an assurance to even guide me.

Wow that's long.

I'm really confused right now. I do believe in the saying "Everything happens for a reason" but then, this time I do not have any inclination as to what should be the reason behind all of this confusion.

I feel like I'm once again stupefied by that person, and the very same thing happened years ago and shit it stucks to the head...to the heart. I am the person who is never used to rejection, simply because nobody ever did that to me...but him.

Though unsaid and left hanging, I am hurt. The closure was there, was given..but why did everything make me more confused, more feeling rejected.

I should have never felt anything in the first place. I am loved by someone so true and so devoted to me, I am truly thankful for having him around. I will be with him no matter what..

I just don't wanna be left hanging in the air again...thinking...this could go on forever you know, I need this to end, and now.

Damn I made a total nonsense to my readers again, sorry guys I just stare at the monitor and type every single sentence that runs through my mind.. Like now.

I'm outta here, hafto sleep.

Hope I get some answers soon, even through a dream.

*sigh*

Realize Again

If he only knew how much I missed him..

Then maybe we won't keep thinking why and how and what he's supposed to do to have our happy time together..

But as the song goes, i'll let him go and think

"Take time to Realize"

Right?

Quarantined

Now my eyes are fuckin' swollen..

*sob*

Curse the Varicella Virus!

I won't be able to go to work of course, which also means that I won't get paid for the days that I will be nursing this pakshet viral infection! My SOM even agreed to give me a three-week sick leave! Damn! That's half of my salary gone! Huhuhu..

Now all I do is sleep and eat.

You think that's nice huh, oh no..no no no, when all you can eat are apples and oatmeal that's not freakin' nice.

I hate this! the itchy feeling and my face! my face! I can tolerate the blisters all over my body but I cannot ever accept the image I see when I face the mirror. Huhuhu..

And my supposed "special someone" isn't replying to my text messages.

I am totally depressed, stressed and dejected.

Pakshet the Chicken Pox

I hate this!

Waaaaaa!

Why????

Damn of all the times why do I have to get chicken pox now,

I mean, heller I just got the job I applied for and now I have to rest for 3-5 days just so I don't mix this contagious viral infection to the precious air of our production floor.

Pakshet tlaga!

Nice!