LIL MISS CHINA

Last October 18, 2007 was my lil cousin's 3rd birthday so I went to Sorsogon and spent the night there. Here are some of the pics I've taken, Jaezelle, my other cousin joined the parade for the UN celebration and she was one of the muses..=)

LOVING HANNAH!

Wow, I can't believe I'm really getting hooked to the series Hannah Montana! The truth is, I don't really watch her show but when I was surfing up on DVDs last week, I saw one which holds all the episodes of season 1. I bought it, take note, I only bought it because the cover was attractive to me, ya know, all the glitters and all, hehehe. Well, I liked it, I loved the humor and the way the actors make it so natural, even their ad libs. I found out that Miley Cyrus aka Miley Stewarts/Hannah Montana is only 12 when she did the series! she's such a talented girl. Anyway, I've finished all 26 episodes of season 1 and I can't wait to get a copy of Hannah Montana season 2! It just started on Disney Channel last Sunday though.. Whew, believe me guys, Hannah can relieve your stresses, and oh, especially Jackson..haha! toodles!

WE HAVE A NEW BABY!

Yey! We have a new baby! Last October 7, 2007, at 11:04PM, my Aunt "ate" Bing gave birth to her third child, of course I get to name the baby since I do it all the time..hehehe. His name is Jayke Deiñel P. Gomez. We have a new ninja! Just look at those "singkit" eyes.. Here's the pics! Enjoy!

CARLALOO

Whew! My dad's car was bought at last. Guess who? It was Beejay, Ichi's bro. Much money ha..hehe. Well, it was a good thing though, because dad's gonna buy a new car again, and Beejay's car, before he bought dad's, a rust colored opel, was given (well not really) to Ichi. He left it here in Legazpi for Ichi to find a buyer and for the moment, for Ichi's use. Well, it was a good thing for Beejay to leave it here since it'll be a great help for us, for the daily transpo and all. Anyway, the best purpose the car would be to us is that tomorrow, we'll have a ride to the resort where we're planning to celebrate our first year anniversary! Yey! I'm so excited and grateful that all are going in the right places, we got enough budget, we got a camera, red wine, friends, and we got a car! haha! I just hope all goes fine tomorrow.. Love you mahal!

yey!

ONE YEAR AND GOING!

I can't believe tomorrow will be one year at last for Ichi and me. One year ago, we were hopelessly scurrying through the storm just to get home, meeting flying roofs and broken branches along the dark and holding on for dear life as we continued rushing through the strong gush of storm wind. We weren't boyfriend/girlfriends by then. But anyhow thanks to the heartless tricycle drivers who ignored us even if we'll pay them double just to get home fast and safe, a million thanks to the jeepney drivers too who just drove past us and never gave our pleading screams a second look. Because of them, we we're forced to walk all the way home through the raging storm, a half an hour walk and it was already dark. Imagine the look of horror on my face as we walked forward to a total darkness, never knowing what to encounter, never seeing where to go. Our only hope was the teeny tiny spot of light from his lighter, which of course made not a single help. I was crying all the way, feeling so helpless, feeling so scared, all wet, muddy and cold. But he held my hand so tight, he made me feel so secured, he hugged me as we rushed through the rain, hugged me again so tight when thunder and lightning struck. That very moment, he made me feel that I want to spend all days of my life with someone like him, with him. I still can't believe Typhoon Milenyo would be the beginning and bridge for us. Stormy as it was, I just think.. It was a very strong blessing from God, because finally, my my own time has come, my everything came, and it was him.=)

September 26, 2007

ANGEL OF MINE

I haven't introduced my cute and cuddly niece yet to you guys. I believe she's the most adorable little bundle in the whole world, she makes you laugh the instant she crunches her little face into a smile like this:

Her name is Julie Angel. And really, she's an angelic baby and she gives all of us smiles everytime. She's also friendly, she doesn't care if a person carrying her is someone she doesn't know, she just behaves and gives fits of laughter to everybody. That's why she is so special to me and I love her so much.

I hope she grows into a kind and loving girl and a God fearing citizen.

Money! Money! Money!

Ever felt so empty? Especially your pockets? and wallets? and ATM's? Grrrrrrr... I cannot contain this problem I'm having now. I just hate the feeling of having no single choice on how will I ever get money to solve my problems. I don't know what to do! Now I do realize that I'm such a spender, big time! and I often forget to save extra just in case THIS happens. So help me God.. huhuhu. Can you just imagine my agony, I have to pay 5k at school, 2k for my phone which is wrecked through of course my clumsiness, another 2k for the 2 months payment for my broadband connection. almost Php 10,000.00! Where the heck will I get that? Anyone reading this who can offer me any web writing jobs or whatever, please, please do so. I'm desperate, and broke, totally broke. *sobs*

This phrase just makes me strong even at this point of my life..it's from Sharmila, my friend from LA..

"No one is ever broke, remember that. You have all the riches in the world and God gave that to you, look at the leaves and the trees, they're all ours..everything is abundant..So smile.."

Thanks Sharmila..

OOOWW..C'MON!

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

BESTFRIEND BLUES

I've read this quote a while ago while looking for the perfect picture that can describe the supposed emotion for this post...

"A best friend is a sister that Destiny forgot to give you"

I wanted to cry. I wanted to wail. I wanted to shout my hurt out.

Just last week some silent force made its way to little by little break the many years my best friend and I had had with each other. The complicated issue I cannot explain online but how I was deeply hurt, maybe you could understand. All my life, I've clung to the principle of good friendship. I've been a good friend to almost everybody, especially my two best friends "honey" and "angel". I've dedicated half my life for them, I've experienced life itself with them, I've learned to love with them, I've done mistakes, so many mistakes with them. I loved them dearly. They were the sisters I never had..

But one day..

"Honey" met a man whom she said she loved so much... She ran away with him. She left us. She left me. No one could ever define the hurt I've experienced. I was never used to living life without her, she was my confidante, she was my source of strength. But she left me just like that. So "angel" and I tried living life again, but now it was just the two of us. I tried convincing myself that I can one day live life again not depending on them. But once again I began loving "angel" so much that I was again proud of being the best friend that I am. Never did I thought that soon she would suddenly drop me, ignore me...LEAVE me too.

You see, I was the best friend in the truest sense, I am not bragging. I loved them so much. I never asked for anything in return, I just wanted them to be at my side when I need them. But they never saw me beyond the friendship, they only saw me as the friend who was demanding of their attention and love. They never realized that I was being like that because they were my constant happiness and strength. It pierced every single piece of joy within me when they were gone. It seems I'll just be waiting, just waiting till they come back and see my worth. I just wish.

PINK

Your Nail Polish Color is Pink

How you're unique: You're girly without being high maintenance Why your style rocks: You're the perfect blend of stylish, preppy, and cute What this color says about you: "I am secure enough not to follow every trend"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

FOR REAL?

People Envy Your Ingenuity

You're a person with unique ideas, big plans, and a zany outlook on life. Many people look to you for inspiration. People envy your creativity and "who cares?" attitude. They feel very ordinary next to you - and they usually are!

What Do People Envy About You?

ABOUT TO BURST!!!

"Aaaaarrrggghhhh!!!"

Did it ever happen to you when you feel like screaming and kicking and hitting everything you get your hands on? The feeling of extreme anger, extreme frustration, extreme everything! I hate not being able to voice out just because I'm JUST the kid. I hate absorbing all the unfair things that are being accused to me because If I answer back, I'm going to be "BASTOS". D*mn! It's annoying to the nerves! I know some of you here who are reading this knows that feeling. It's when you had a shouting match with your mom and she accuses you of unfair things, she always reason out that ONE thing you've been wrong before. Its like everything you do is being based on that one fault. It's excruciatingly unfair!! And what can I do? Nothing! Nothing but keep and continuously absorb all the hatred, all the anger, all the heavy feelings. I just go to the corner and even if I don't want to, I can't help but let an unfaithful tear fall down. This has happened every time, and all through those "Lumayas ka na!", "Wala kang silbi!", "Bobo ka!", "Malandi ka!", "Wala kang galang!", "Sana di ka na nabuhay!"... All that I've kept inside my bag of hurt. And now I'm really fed up and about to burst. I hate it. I hate myself for feeling all this...I miss my bi. I wish we're together now, far far away from all of them...

SOFTLY, GENTLY, I HAVE LET YOU DOWN

The weeks that passed I can never understand. Somehow through my ever confusing life I was brought up to face one of the most difficult I can say, situation. It was where a woman like me started being a girl once more and the girl in me suddenly became a woman. These emotions flew like tornadoes inside my already tormented head that I can barely cling to my own self. It's like when you are a little kitten and you're being bitten by your mom but in a very gentle way just as she can safely tuck you to a safer place, but instead you thought it was danger. It's more of when you are a leaf trying desperately so hard to stick to your branch but you suddenly turn brown and crippled that you have no choice but to let go..and drift with the air to a far far far away land. I cannot contain this agony. I cannot bear the hurtful load of guilt that I carry now. I cannot forgive myself for hurting my strength. I will never forgive myself for hurting my mom...='(

MANAGING A HEART

Okay, how do I start...Wow, again I've ventured into this job where I find many unanswerable and unending questions from the matters of the heart. Well I guess I'm used to it, but I can never be used to from the tiresome cycle of "love me-love me not" crap. 

I've read this book "Men are from Mars Women are from Venus"..It clearly states the differences of men from women and vice-versa. I found the author's theories true, for example, it can never be denied that when a woman is loving, extra-sweet, caring and intimate, the man can't contain himself from admiring. But when the woman begins to be the annoying, nagging, complaining one, the man tends to just give a frown and immediately goes out the door. The point is, men don't understand that women only needs the "lambing" and not the "i-don't-care" mode. Well, as much as my honey and I realize all those things, we can't really adopt the idea.Hence, we experience a lot of hassles and arguments. But I guess what makes us stronger is that very precious moment when after a day of struggles and quarrels and fights, there is that 10minutes or so where we finally just look at each other, not a word, smile, hug and snuggle. Done! I just love Love..

MORE THAN JUST A PRETTY FACE :D

IQ REPORT--02/22/07

Your IQ score is 100. This means that you are smarter than 50.0% of all other Super IQ test takers.This number is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on the Tickle Super IQ Test.But there's more to intelligence than a single number, a single score, or a single label. Tickle uses 8 distinguishable dimensions of intelligence in the Super IQ Test. By analyzing your individual scores on those 8 scales, we are able to look beyond the raw IQ score into how you process information, and which intellectual strengths you're best at.Your test results indicate that the way you process information makes you an Original Thinker.You have a highly inventive mind. You have your own individual understanding of how the world works and you see things on a different plane than most. Whether you're coming up with brilliant new ideas, or new ways of looking at things, you're probably tapping into several of your multiple talents. Your naturally abstract thinking makes you highly skilled at drawing interesting connections and you are able to pick up on the visual detail that others routinely miss. You take concepts that exist only in your mind and then imagine how they might manifest themselves in everyday life. Because you think on this other plane it may be hard for others to recognize your abilities. Traditional intelligence tests — unlike this one — typically assess a person's ability to count, or know the right vocabulary words, but are unable to assess their ability to think on an abstract level, or understand things visually. While your talents matter greatly in real life, they can sometimes be overlooked.Here's an example of your Original Thinker thinking skills at work in a real-life situation:You are out on the town with some friends. You have gone from one restaurant to another, when you notice that you recognize two men from the first restaurant. You continue to have a good time with your friends, and when it is time to leave, you notice that those men are nowhere to be seen. Once you get outside however, you see them walking across the street from you — headed in the same direction. Your friends are carrying on, oblivious to them. But you have the presence of mind to guide your friends to a better-lit street where you convince them to hail a cab. Once inside the cab, you explain that you just had a sense about the two men who were seemingly following you. And as you pass them in your cab, you see that they have stopped and turned in the opposite direction. Your attention to that kind of detail may have just spared you and your friends an unpleasant encounter.

SUPER IQ DIMENSIONS

Now that you know about how you process information, let's drill down to see what your specific intellectual strengths are. None of the intellectual abilities is more important than any of the others. And it's your unique scores on each of these scales, that makes you an interesting addition to any group, office, or family. These intellectual strengths color your world and the way you perceive it, and also allow you to contribute your original perspective when solving problems and coming up with ideas. No one intellectual dimension can define you. It's the original combination of your intellectual strengths that makes you special.

ViSuaL AbiLiTy

Your score is 93 out of 100. Visual ability allows you to accurately visualize all aspects of an object for the purposes of recreating it, the way painters do. It's also what you use to imagine a scene from a novel or a story someone tells you — the ability to accurately reproduce reality in the mind's eye.

In every-day life, visual ability is what you use when creating original art. In order to reproduce an object on canvas (as painters do) you have to be able to accurately represent the dimensions of those objects in the picture. Getting the accurate perspective and depth is easiest for someone with a strong visual ability. Compared with others, your visual ability is very high. This means that you have a very strong visual ability.

OrGaNiZaTiOnAL AbiLiTy

Your organizational ability score is 88 out of 100. Organizational ability is what allows you to organize and arrange information effectively, be precise, and proofread carefully.Here's a question that required high organizational ability:Which of the following character strings is the closest match to 8,392,211,109?Here's the answer: The correct answer is B. Try reading each of the answer options not as numbers, but rather as a string of characters; when you do so, you will find that B has the fewest mismatches, position for position, in the string of characters. See below (mismatches highlighted in red):
Original string:
8,392,211,109
Answer A:
8,382,311,119
3 mismatches
Answer B:
8,3925211,129
2 mismatches
Answer C:
8,39,2211,208
4 mismatches
Answer D:
8,329,211,108
3 mismatches In every-day life, organizational ability is what you use to proofread a paper or organize a messy desk. Coming up with an organizational system for keeping track of things comes easy to those who are high in this ability. It is a highly practical skill. Compared with others, your organizational ability is high. This means that you have a strong organizational ability.

VeRbaL AbiLiTy

Your verbal ability score is 73 out of 100. Verbal ability means having an expansive range of vocabulary, being able to use it, and feeling a desire to add to it. It is also what allows you to comprehend the relationships and subtle difference between words.

In every-day life, verbal ability is essential to being able to interpret written materials. It's also valuable for communication — the more vocabulary words you know, the more precisely you may be able to convey your point.Compared with others, your verbal ability is high. This means that you have a strong verbal ability.

ABSTRACT REASONING ABILITY

Your score is 66 out of 100. With abstract reasoning you can think on multiple levels and see relationships between ideas that are not easily apparent. When you're using your abstract reasoning skills, you draw on both external logical and creative sources of information to come up with your solution.

In every-day life, abstract reasoning ability is used to understand complex, multi-layered situations, sometimes involving the associations and relationships between two seemingly different sets of information. For example, imagine someone who has taken piano lessons and was taught that the skill was more easily obtained when she pointed out her struggles to her teacher. She was able to learn from them and improve. This same woman then takes writing lessons and again makes her mistakes obvious so that the instructor can suggest changes and she can improve. Compared with others, your abstract ability is This means that you have a strong abstract ability.

SPATIAL ABILITY

You scored 62 out of 100. You use spatial ability to judge the relationship between objects and physical space, like a parked car and the width of the road. It is also what helps you visualize a room when you are decorating or rearranging furniture.

In every-day life, you use this ability when you drive or even when you are walking through a packed crowd (so that you don't run into other people!). Some people actually use this ability to help them with non-physical things. If they are trying to understand a situation, they might think of the words as shapes that they need to negotiate. Compared with others, your spatial abilities are high. This means that you have a strong sense of how things exist in physical space.

LOGICAL ABILITY

Your scored 38 out of 100. Logical ability is what you use when determining whether or not something makes sense. You rely on logic when analyzing an argument, step-by-step. This ability also contributes to your aptitude for recognizing underlying patterns.Here's a question that required high logical ability to solve:Mary loved pink flowers more than she loved red ones. She didn't like orange flowers at all, and while she liked yellow flowers, she couldn't say that she really loved them. Which of these is true? A. She liked red flowers less than orange flowers B. She liked yellow flowers more than red flowers C. She liked pink flowers more than yellow flowers D. She liked orange flowers more than pink flowers Here's the answer: She liked yellow flowers but didn't love them; however, she did love pink and red ones - pink more than red. Thus far the order of preference is pink, red, yellow. But she liked orange least of all, which means the new order is pink, red, yellow, orange. This means that she liked red more than orange (which makes option A not true). She liked yellow less than red (which makes option B not true). She liked pink more than yellow, which makes option C true, and she liked orange less than any of the flowers, which makes option D not true. Therefore, the correct answer is C. In every-day life, you might use this ability to figure out the best route to the store, or to figure out the best deal when choosing between a couple items to buy. Everyone has a certain ability to use logic to solve problems. Some are better at it than others, however. Compared with others, your logical ability is low. This means that you are logical, but at times are less likely to use logic to help you solve problems.

MECHANICAL ABILITY

You scored 34 out of 100. Mechanical ability is what helps you understand how machines and tools work. Someone with a good amount of mechanical ability probably has an innate understanding of physics. High mechanical skill is also associated with a high degree of precision and practical thinking.Here's a question that required high mechanical ability to solve:Which object will fall faster? A 8 x 11 piece of paper or a peanut? Both weight the same amount.A. The piece of paperB. The peanutC. It is impossible to know the paper will encounter more resistance than will the peanut, and so it will fall more slowly. The peanut will fall faster and so the correct answer is B.In every-day life, mechanical ability comes in handy when anything in the house breaks, or when you have to purchase something that requires physical assembly. It is also helpful in finding solutions to physical problems, such as determining how to build a pulley to bring water out of a well.Compared with others, your mechanical abilities are low. This means that you have a somewhat weak mechanical ability.

NUMERICAL ABILITY

You scored 18 out of 100. You use numerical ability when you spot a numerical pattern or solve a numerical equation. Here's a question that assessed your numerical ability:Which number completes the series? 1, 3/2, 2, 5/2, ?Here's the answer: 3 In every-day life, you use the ability to calculate a tip at a restaurant, or estimate taxes on a purchase. Everyone has this ability to a greater or lesser extent.Compared with others, your numerical ability is very low. This means that you process numbers with considerable difficulty, and are more likely than others to rely on a calculator for important calculations.

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---These are the results of my IQ tests from Tickle..Hmm.. OO NA BOBO NA AKO SA MATH! HAHA..=)

ONLINE MADNESS

I am as of the moment feeling frustrated and annoyed. Why? because I can't play my favorite online game at home because I don't have the required "video card" and because someone here in this internet shop is just so annoying I can't help but frown all the time. Duh, it doesn't take a genius to figure it out that someone is badly annoyed to you right? So why does this b*tch not getting the message?! I guess she's just too stupid to notice my stares.. Uhh? okay, i'm losing the grip. I better get some air outside.. Later!

MY RUMMAGE

Now what? Nothing…still no one makes my life exciting. I am just a typical person full of enthusiasm in life. I live by my own creed, I talk with my own words and I follow my own orders. Before, I never believed that that thing they call “partnership” would complete me. My being alone does not make me happy. Although I do not consider myself useless and pathetic, I just can’t seem to find the right reasons to be happy all the time.
I’m an introvert person but sure I’m optimistic enough to survive. I don’t delude myself into thinking that my happiness lies in that one person and that once I find him, he’ll stick around. But my lack of contentment, satisfaction and ease of mind and heart pesters my damn life! They say you will never find those in one human being, what a waste of time! Waiting and searching for the one…but hey! I can’t help it, its human nature to want to love and be loved in return! I guess I just can’t escape the truth that I will never be contented without a partner.

Oh yeah, it’s not only me…there are many other dilemma-attacked humans scattered out there. Like, hello? Do I have to pretend dying just because I’m a third-wheel? I hate it when I know I have to deal with life’s promises. I never believed but now, in my lonely status, I know I have to… and I will.Maybe I was just left out from the blessing of partnership that God has given…well, that’s why I’m still here, seeking for love and affection, searching for the person who will at least make my life worthwhile. But where are they? Or should I say he? Is he looking for me too? Or have I found him already? My mind is full of questions that kept on clinging to my nerves. I pity myself for being so undeserving of anyone’s care and attention. Or am I? I’m not saying that no one loves me, of course there are my parents, my best friends and my relatives…but c’mon! Let’s get to the point I’m not in search for parental guidance or friendship affection! I have them already, who I’m looking for is someone who will unconditionally present to me his love and will fully accept mine too. Someone who is willing to devote himself to me and bring me contentment I seek, with all that there’s no doubt I’m going to be happy. Happy to the extent that I’m ready to stop grumbling and complaining about life. I’m wondering if I will be coming to the point that I’m going to spend my entire lifetime searching endlessly for him…till when will I be longing for his embraces and hugs and cares all my life? I guess I have to take the risk by after all. Uhh? Why am I getting paranoid anyway? If I don’t find him…in due time, I’m just here…still here, continuing my rummage…waiting…and perhaps he’ll find me instead…=)

-I wrote this when I was 17. Obviously, I was at the brink of "why-am-I-alone" state. Yet, I'd like to share this with you guys, who knows, some may even relate with my topsy-turvy rummaging story..=)

haha

A LIFE LIVED

A Life Lived

Before, my world used to breathe
with joy and love,
Laughter filled my journey.
Until everything misty stumbled on my way,
Just then, I realized, life is rough.
I pondered with destiny for so long,
I shared my emotions out loud.
Hate overflowed my screaming soul,
Just then, I realized, life must go on.
I raced with my dreams in the air,
I forced my shadow to run.
Deep within myself a girl cries,
Just then, I realized, life must be lived.
Treasures fulfilled my faith,
My tears were offered to dry.
Love again entered my dark haven,
Just then, I realized, life is worth living.

It is…it is…

I make poems like these a lot, I guess it pictures my craving for humane imagination and poetry that gives a little bite of life.. I just don't get why I always end up with melancholic themes on every poem and story that I write, I'm not that pessimistic. I just don't know why.

SMALL TALKS

WAKE UP AND CRAM!

I've been stretching my powers to the max. It's 11:20 and I have a lunch date with my girlfriend at Small Talk Cafe at 12:00 noon. Yes, I just woke up 30 minutes ago, how do you suppose I can manage to get ready by 20 minutes? What the heck, I'm gonna get bitten to death again by my unfortunate companion when I get there an hour late! Grrr.. Anyway, I better get done now..=)

Its me & Ching..=) Pretty pals

BREAKING UP IS HARD TO DO

"Hung-over"... I can honestly attest that the word best describes me now. Last night was once again a one helluva series of unplanned chaos! My "supposed" boyfriend called me, and wow what a drunk caller.. I just hate it when he calls me and can't say anything but blabber and stutter and stammer!.. For some reason, things just splattered in my mind, things that I've been longing to say and do weeks ago.. I ended what we had, EVERYTHING. Last night I broke up with him.. But damn it's an excruciating thought... the after-play was worse than the actual breaking-up moment.. But i guess it was the most decent thing to do.. I can't be more unfair to someone who deserves to be loved, in the exact sense of the word.. i just can't give him back what he is giving me... the give-and-take relationship is never going 2 work between us...11pm, my brother and I went to a 24-hour diner..and afterwards... finally... had some drink. It was easing somehow.. but this morning, nothing can ease my defying mood but myself and this weblog..well, at least... right? -April 19, 2006

TIRESOME TEEN

I’ve been to heaven and back to hell again… whew. Thanks to my little big bro, he made my summer a lot more fun and enjoyable. But 2 weeks just seem so..err.. short. Half-siblings deserve to be on the right track of bonding sessions right?? Anyway, I’m back to my chaotic yet classy life… who said being a province-girl means dork-driven and outdated? Na ah.. Now, I’m close to cursing the sun, the heat just drives me crazy! I can’t get out of the house not wearing a jacket, well both ways, I’m drenched with fire. I hate it… but I love summer! Uhmm..I’m losing the point am I? My welcoming to the adulthood is just within 2 week’s notice… goodbye teengirl.. yuck. I’m turning 20! Can’t it be twenTEEN?? Urghh! I’m a soon-to-be adult, I’m bored, and I don’t even have my friends here to share with the agony! What an enormously BORING life..yada, yada, yada… I’m outta here…-April 23, 2006

THE BEGINNING...

I used to have this ultimate dream of becoming a writer, but then I let it slide down my palm. Oh well, life sometimes suck and shit happens. I'd like everyone who'll read this to know a little more about who I am.. Here are some of my works before that I'd still want you to read..=)