[soon-to-be] Shopaholic and [soon-to-be] Baby.

Today is supposed to be Father's Day but given that my baby and I haven't met our "future dad" yet *wink*.. We spent the day as normal as possible, my Mum cooked Dad's favorite dish for lunch and at around 3pm, we went out to shop some groceries and ended up buying a LOT of infant onesies from our favorite "suki" UK supplier..lol. Talk about "branded" and "cheap"! Most of my wardrobe pieces came from UK, hehe.. I remember my office mates asking me where I got the cute floral skirt that I was wearing and I said I bought it at some mall when really, I paid only ten pesos for it. Sssshhh :) No wonder they call me the Ukay Expert..Lols

For a total of Php200.00, I got all these:

I don't know baby's gender yet so I had to pick a set of blues, neutrals and pinks! haha.. anyhow, if it's a boy I can gift the pink set to one of my godchilds and vice-versa :)

But there are some things that cannot be bought at these cheap rates for a newborn baby, and browsing online, I can only drool. If only clicking the "Like" button will get me all these for my baby.. Parang si Lola lang sa commercial ng BayanDSL.. lol :D

like!

like!

like!

like!

like!

like!

like!

And a LOT MOOORE... whoa...

I can imagine how shopaholic I'll become once my babe is here ..but/and of course, I need to earn moolah TWICE as HARD! Whew.. :) Regardless, giving my best to sustain for my child will still be the most glorious pain I can and will ever feel.. I know all Moms do :)

PS.

I need to plan the baby shower! Aaaaaaghhh! Any volunteer? Any sponsors? Friends? :)

What I LOVE the most about YOU...

The scent that emits in you, that floral and spring smell that brings back memories…

The warmth of your embrace and the softness of your touch…

Your loud morning yells and the smell of your egg omelets…

Your consistent asking if what you’re wearing is pretty or nice…

Your white hairs and when we sit by the front door while I remove each one of them…

That frown on your face whenever I tell you that I’m going out with friends and that I’ll be home late so don’t wait and sleep already… But I always find you asleep in the living room’s sofa when I open the door. You always wait.

Your instant SMS reply of “YES” whenever I send you an “ASK-A-LOAD 5.00” message.

And…

Now that I’m having my own child…

The way you showed your unconditional love and acceptance despite my shortcomings…

The way you look me in the eyes and assure me that you’ll never let me falter regardless my situation…

When you put your palm in my belly for the first time and felt your grandchild kick…

And when you insist that you be called “Mommy” and I, “Mama” whenever I tease you that I’m gonna teach my baby to call you “Wowa”…

Those nights when Dad is away and I still sleep with you in your room…

And up until now, the way you check me in my room in the middle of the night…

There is no one in this world that I look up to and love more than YOU. And when my little one comes out in this world, I know she’ll be alright, because you’re her grandma and from what I read on one grandma’s view, she said “I can never explain the joy I felt when I saw my daughter’s baby for the first time, it was like the day I gave birth to her. And I can’t stop smiling because I know I get to fill up whatever I missed. I get to be a mom all over again, that’s what grandmas do. J”

I love you Mom J

Ugh. Saturday

Yeah, Saturday. I shouldn't be sighing and umph-ing because it's rest day and finally, it's time to just lie lazily around and go bum. But when you're all alone in the apartment? Ugh! I am beyond bored. I'd rather faint and wake up Monday already. I don't like this!!!

~Y~

Getting There

Today was quite ordinary. I got home from work at around 6:30AM, checked my email in-boxes and Facebook and chatted for a bit with KY (Kentucky?) ha ha! At 8:30AM, I finally dozed off, sweet dreams. Then by 2:30PM, I woke up because I had to call the Laundry Shop for my clothes to be delivered, I then got up and paid the bills, the rent, the water (obligations..*sigh*) Finally, I had the urge to grab something to eat because of a rumbling tummy. I had "Pork Adobo" and "Sinigang" for lunch but boy I got sooo full after only a few spoonfulls. Why? I don't know. I barely ate last night at the office yet I feel like my stomach is gonna explode if I shove another grain of rice into my mouth. Oh for dieting's sake, bring it on! :)

I'm also proud that my blogging skills are gettin' back and sharp again. An excerpt from my email to Bessy "I suddenly missed writing. Yeah, I missed the excitement, the sensible thoughts that run into my mind every now and then, the freedom to just put into words what I really feel." And THAT, is so true. So expect more happenings and updates from such-a-cutie in the following days!

And oh, come January 2011, I will be having a beach get-away with friends at Calaguas, Camarines Norte! Gosh I am so excited! Lol! :) Look!

I am positively looking forward to a bright, happy, lucky and fruitful 2011!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone! :))

Lotsa Love,

~Y~

Pardon the... Slacker!

Yeah, I know. I have been so torn with the idea of posting another blog entry, I feel as though I'd need a major major event to happen first before I can post anything in here. But of course there should be the updates, the pictures, the drama, the hate-posts, the current/daily musings and just about whatever happened for the past months. Alright, here goes...

May - Was my 24th birthday celebration. Yay for the cakes JM, Cha and Grace! :))

July - I got a tattoo! Actually, two. :)

August - I moved to a new apartment, much quieter, more peace of mind.. Haha

September/October - Was out and about the whole city. Friends! And went home in Bicol to celebrate with my Dad's 50th birthday. :)

There, that's enough for now.. haha! Oh for November? Nothing much, except that I always, always get soo bored at home that I end up camwhoring til dawn. Lol :))

Mwuaahh!

~Y~

This Guy.

I have been trying, desperately scrambling for thoughts to put into this journal. It has been weeks. How can a million things happen in a month? Things that I never wanted, things that I never imagined to ever occur in my life. Things that I thought I could handle. Turned out I wasn't the superwoman I thought I was after all. :(

I met this guy. This guy whom I thought was just like those other "passers" in my life. Most importantly, from the very beginning, I knew this guy was meant to be short-lived and will just fade away, just like the others. I was so convinced of myself that I was/am molded as hard as a rock already, that this heart won't give-in no matter what. Just like in those other guys.

But I succumbed. I knew I changed from all those sh*ts that happened before, but my phrase "I'm meaner now" proved to be just another bitching. I bitched myself, damn this heart.

But who am I kidding? I am but another Cinderella...always ready to fall into ashes.

Easter Baby

I just have to blog about this!

Yesterday, I went to Church with my cousin Jaezelle to hear the Easter Mass. The Church was jam-packed with people so we  settled outside and sat on monoblock chairs under a tree, we can still see the ceremony upfront so we were okay just sitting there. Then this cutie little boy, about 9 months old I guess, kept on pushing one of the plastic chairs and his dad would pick him up and let him sit. He can barely walk. But as he sat there with his dad holding him, just in time when the priest was blessing everyone for Easter's essence, he clasped his chubby little hands together and looked up, smiling. He looked so adorable and I just wasn't able to resist taking a picture of him :) He looked like he was praying, all the innocence in his face radiated and the people were staring at him, all smiling. Oh that kid was such a joy :)

Look:

New Blog Dress!!

Yay!! After 6 hours of editing, HTML's and Photoshop madness, I'm finally done with the new layout and template! :)

PROUD. This is pure talent you know. Hahaha, I know, I know it's not perfect yet. But then again, I am happy I made it all by myself and didn't just google it. :p

Because I am Bored

Starting it Right

I went to Church today after work. I had this need, no, obligation to fulfill and it kept screaming in my conscience. I have to pay my respect. I have to go home to Him, even for just a short time.

So I bought this pink "palaspas". A way of celebrating Palm Sunday for most of us Filipinos consist of these palm branches.

"Domingo de Ramos or Palm Sunday mass is the first mass of the Holy Week. It celebrates the entry of Jesus to Jerusalem. We’ve learned from the Bible that Jesus entered the town of Jerusalem on a donkey instead of on foot, and was acclaimed by crowds waving branches."

I feel that this is a way that God has led me into, for me to embrace the change that is to happen in my life. It has always been Him who feels my needs, who understands my pains and nurses my failures. And it is for Him that I humbly submit myself.

I know that I'm in the right path... :)

Because I can feel Him holding my hand...always. :)

Hope Full :)

Say it again.

 

My bloground song says it for me, haha. What the hell is "bloground"? Geez Ysh. :)

So anyway, here I am ready to scatter some deets for y'all.Whatever happened to me in the past weeks had been all hell and all crap. And when I say hell, it’s really more than that (if there’s such a word).

I'm sick. A rare sickness that doctors call “idiopathic” which means that there's no definite cause, no definite cure, no ETA, no ETD. Whatever. I really don't wanna discuss it much because it makes me all piteous of myself again, and a scratch of my self-esteem is the last thing that I need right now.

On a lighter note, because of this sickness I got to go home in my hometown. Yay! I stayed in Bicol for 12 days and aside from the hospital-house route, I got to see my old friends from grade school :) The downfall is, I cannot drink alcohol anymore, well I still can probably consume 1-2 bottles but more than that? Na-uh. I'd rather not risk having those hideous red rashes all over my legs again. :( 

Now I'm back in Manila. Here in my very own crib, all alone. But at least I have a T.V now, and an Internet connection (thank the gods!) and a DVD player (weee) and I still have my job! :p I should be thankful, right?

As for my love life. Oh I'm feeling it. I am getting there :)

When He Called.

I was heartbroken 2 weeks ago.

So heartbroken that I even slumped in the corner of my dark room, all teary and miserable. I slumped there for hours, staring at nothingness, looking like a freaking vampire.

I never thought that that scenario is even possible. I thought it only happens in movies where the damsel-in-distress who's all too stressed and depressed die of a heartbreak.

What a loser. Oh yeah, now I am too. Blah.

But 2 days ago...

He called.

HE called.

I shouted on Facebook:

"He called me. He called ME. Why would he CALL me? WHY?!"

You see? There was excitement in that post. I did see that.

Now I ask myself WHY.

tsk.

Post Secrets

{sigh}

My Sentiments Exactly

Miss Fortune

"You've got needs, too! Your friends and family often rely on you for taking care of them in various ways, but today is all about you -- so do whatever feels right and let them fend for themselves."

This was my horoscope reading yesterday.

I never believed in those kinds of crap, horoscopes and fortune-telling and zodiacs and blah blah... But sometimes, it's entertaining enough that I spare some space in my Facebook Wall everyday just to have my daily readings.

AND this one hit it in the sack. JACKPOT.

{Super true.}

I just hope whoever it is that decides on what readings to disseminate to the world also knows how make them come true. Sadly, it's for everyone's eyes only.

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[sidetrack]

I think I'm losing a friend. I hope to the deepest of my heart not.

BUT she shows no compassion, nor care. Very unlikely of her since she's always been one of the most natural when it comes to tender loving care. Well, I am gonna let this slide, I have my own pain to nurse. And to top it all, I am ALONE.

But I miss her. I hope she knows in her heart how much I love and treasure her.

I can only hope :)

I've to sleep now, work waits and lurks after dark. ha ha. *roll eyes*

AJA!!!

This is MY Now

I'm finally settled.

Last February 15, 2010, I officially moved out of Cityland and settled my butt here in my new home. I won't tell you where, but I'm just somewhere in Pasig. :)

The place is super nice, the rent is super cheap, the owners are super kind.

I guess God really loves me after all, on the last minute, He guided me and led me to this place. It's safe here and I feel at home despite of the "solitude" :)

Thank you Lord.

Someone

I'm moving out.

No grudges or whatsoever, but I feel so blue. I feel so different. She has helped me in so many ways, she was there in my lowest hours, she provided things that I never asked for. BUT. If you feel that she's not herself when with you anymore, if you're starting to breathe in the coldness that emits in her. What do you do?

Don't get me wrong here. I'm not a lesbian talking about my live-in partner. She's a friend. My best friend, my sister in so many ways.

I am just so clueless as to why she's acting this way. I know that someone has been dictating things to her, someone so close to her heart that even our friendship is not enough to stand in between. I understand.

But why let things end this way?

I have been trying my very best to think rational and act wise.

I love her.

BUT sometimes, she has to know that I'm not JUST there for her errands and favors.

That I am her friend too.

"It gets tiring when you're always the one who gives comfort to other people, they don't understand that you need the same someone too."

Promise.

I have a yearning that I've been keeping to myself for quite a while now. I don't understand why it burns in me, but somehow I feel a blazing desire to fulfill the yearning that my heart and mind is craving. I have never thought of anything like it in my whole life, I mean, that's exaggeration because yes I sometimes have, but not to the extent that I feel sore. My body longs for the existence of something warm and gentle, something that can make me whole.

Something. Someone that can make my life complete.

But I live with my virtues. Sometime in the past, I have battered myself and abused my soul to the deepest until I wasn't able to feel anymore. I had my fair share of mistakes, mistakes that I never want to commit again. But who am I to implement something when I know that I am but a weak human being? I can only hope.

Then again, apart from hoping, I wish. I wish with all my heart that someday or sooner, I will feel the soft and sweet breath of the person who can complete my existence in this world. That someday, I will touch the warm smoothness of him/her.

Soon enough, this overflowing love inside my heart, this love that has been swelling and thumping in my cradle will meet its owner.

One day, I will feel you in my arms love.

One day, I will give my all to have you.

Help me.

Help my yearning to meet you.

Find me.

Because I'll be waiting.

My baby.

My sweet, sweet child.

:)

Yes Y, it's V again.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! :)

There, there. You might think I'm overly enthusiastic about V-day, you might think I'm one of those people who gives about a bigger deal out of that ordinary day. Seemingly, for me that is, Valentine's day is just another manic date of the year where people get all dramatic and cheesy. Do I sound bitter? No, because I have been bitter, cheesy and corny too. I have been.

Now I promise this won't be all about my bitching and lashing ;) I have been reading my previous posts since I started this blog and my, my, why is it that I was always miserable and unfortunate not to mention panicky on the wretched day?

Did cupid deliberately put me into his blacklist? Or am I just too cool to celebrate the so-called "heart's day"?

2010 is not an exception. How convenient is it to break up with your boyfriend before February 14? I said I didn't mind the day, but then again. It stings like hell.

Oh well. :) At least I'll live.

Tequila Anyone?

Last wednesday, my friends from Panasonic and I went to Antipolo to get some fun-oh-fun, yeah we did! :) T'was a triple birthday celebration for my dear friend Cha and two of our boys Sherwin and Marvin. And the gang was there to get drunk and get wild. haha. I never was any good with tequila, damn damn tequila. I can gulp a pool of vodka no chaser at all, I can wash down bottles of brandy or whisky or rhum or champagne or of course beer and it will take a lot of tick-tocks to get me swaying. But with three shots of tequila? I die.

But what could be worse than dying? I FORGET! I forget details of what I did or of what happened the night before, I always wear an award-winning shocked face when I get to see the pictures and the evidences of my unfortunately unfair crime. And oh I die again. I just die.

I can hate it all I want, but I cannot yield. So there's always a next time for me :p Lucky enough I have wonderful friends who never, never dare to do evil things on me.

Oh I would loove to see them try. Haha :)

Oh here's where the amnesia strikes. What were we doing Vhan? Hahaha

Anyhow, I still had a wicked night! :p